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I think I saw you in my sleep, darling,
I think I saw you in my dreams you were
Stitching up the seams on every broken promise
That your body couldn’t keep.
I think I saw you in my sleep.

I thought I heard the door open
I thought I heard the door open but
I only heard it close.

I thought I heard a plane crashing, but
Now I think it was your passion snapping.

I think you saw me confronting my fear, it
Went up with a bottle and went down with the beer and
I think you ought to stay away from here
There are ghosts in the walls and they
Crawl in your head through your ear.

I think I saw you in my sleep, lover,
I think I saw you in my dreams you were
Stitching up the seams on every mangled promise
That your body couldn’t keep.
I think I saw you in my sleep.

wish you were here.



i’d settle for the want though. 

this is a monument to all of my sins. 

some days, i wake up sad.

hopefully this is just one of those days, but some just seem harder than the rest.  I hate the way i feel, and i hate that i can’t make myself happy. but i don’t want to make myself happy, i want to make her happy. I find my own security in her smile, and that’s enough for me. she thinks i’m being cute when i tell her she’s my everything, but it’s pathetically true.